It's been a while since my last entry...about...(uses fingers to count) "1...2...3.." 5 months!! so deprived, yes I am. But anyway...I have written anything in a while either. I'm planning on starting a new story when school's over. Just one more week!! I only have 4 finals (hopefully not tennis too). Wish me luck!! It would be so awesome if I could do good!

The sad thing is that my stories reflect what's been happening to me lately/my mood. Sorry for bringing down the spirits. Honestly, sad endings are easier to write than happy ones. Maybe I'm just too picky. Cuz I read sooo much. It's probably not healthy. This is where u guys should be like "ehehehehe....NERD!" I hope I can right a good story for the ppl who read it.

Now to continue my rambling...
Kids at my school are like: "My life sucks!" "I wish I could die!" "Why do I even live?"
Truthfully, I feel like that a lot...but I'm never able to say those kinds of words. Cuz, no matter what, there are still some bright things. Every minute of the day, I relive the most painful things that have hurt my life...but still...life can be wonderful. The ones I love are still alive. Even if its difficult, I can still smile. I can still laugh. I can still sing (actually, cut that. My voice=broken glass). So I'm continually trying to convince myself. "You only truly live once. Make it worthwhile."

Thank you for reading my ramble. I just felt that I should change my 5 month old entry.
So I wish everyone a happy summer! (pulls out umbrella and sunglasses) now...TO THE BEACH!! (Mom- GO STUDY!!)

Finals are almost over! I have one more, and it's tomorrow. W Geo, but that shouldn't be too hard.

I did well on Art and Geometry. But I did horrible on English. BLEH!!!! And I don't even WANT to talk about Spanish. I was so sleepy and I couldn't think, and made all kinds of stupid mistakes!!! ERRGGG!!!!

*goes to a corner and moves into a depression* WWWAAAHHH!!!! I'm asian!!! I shouldn't have grades like these!! why...is the world so cruel..

My new favorite song of the day: The Call by Regina Spektor. (this is the only song I really like from her)

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye..

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye..

Mad world happens also to be the title of a very sad song.
Here are the lyrics:

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.

It drives you nuts, doesn't it...

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I thought this would be quite interesting, even though I usually don't do this stuff...

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your “down time”.

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.
You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.